In war, you can only be killed once, but in politics, many times

Why do I like to read Winston Churchill's writing and his quotes? How often do you come upon gems like the title?

It's been a really tough month. Changunnie finally settled in her new school. Still some work to do about her teacher's pet traits (and where did she get that form? Unfortunately I cannot point finger at her daddy) but good otherwise and I suppose that is the only good news so far this month.

What really stressed me out is what's going on at work. We have been working really hard to bring in some Q4 P&L. I mean hard, to a point I was at my desk sobbing whilst eating a baked pork chop on rice from the cafe in the basement of my office building with vengeance. It was 2:30pm and I called that takeout set my lunch. I had a go not once but twice at my associate (who in my opinion should have been made VP) two days in a roll. Poor kid was trying to get things done but appeared in front of me at the wrong time and got a full blast. I feel really guilty but apologies can only do that much.

The politics we have to deal with is unbelievable. I thought bringing in the money is important but people just want to fight for credit and along the way, set people up so that when anything happens, pointing fingers is easy. The mere thought of the events send chills down my spine. All I can say is I think I died at least 10 times a day over the last couple weeks. I wish I know how to defend myself and my team members but I feel so helpless. Reading doesn't do me any good either. I became good at spotting politics and schemes people are plotting but I don't have the wisdom to navigate through the battlefield.

It's typhoon 8 today and I got a deep cut on my right heel when I got out of the car in the strong wind. I am on clutches right now and I suppose I have the perfect excuse to wear sweat pants and sneakers to work in the coming week or so. On the bright side? I felt like the wind was going to blow me away. It gotta be the effectiveness of my diet and if that's the thing that brightens up my day, I am living a pretty pathetic life.