We've come a long way since 20 years ago. Really?

It rained hard last weekend. We were housebound and the weather brought me down memory lane. 20 years ago, students in Beijing demanded for democracy. Tian An Men Square may be a big place but there was not an empty spot that summer. People in Hong Kong went all out and there were over 1 million people on the street, voicing out their support for the students. The rain didn't stop people from making a strong statement, hoping that the officials sitting inside Zhong Nan Hai can hear what the people had to say.

20 years passed and I am no longer the same young student with lots of dreams in my head. Did I forget about what happened 20 years ago? Hell no! How can I forget about the scene of a man trying to stop a tank from moving forward by standing in front of it? How can I forget about grannies going up to military trucks to tell soldiers that they should go home instead of going into the city? And the same tricycle that people used to transport water melon in the summer time was used to transport injured students and supporters out of Tian An Men Square for medical help. It was bloody. You can almost smell the blood through the TV screen.

I suppose there is some medical advancement in this world that I am not aware of? Perhaps there's some truth in the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"? Some people in Hong Kong are trying to convince the others that May and June never existed back in 1989. I found it appalling that the Chief Executive of Hong Kong "represented" the people of Hong Kong when he was asked about 1989. Let's see, either I am not "people of Hong Kong" or he is talking BS. The CE must have been great at Dodgeball. He told everyone to focus on the economic development in China over the last 20 years. The standard of living might have improved in costal cities but I see a decline in the core values that make us people. The friendly neighbourhoods are disappearing. You can live next to your neighbour for 20 years without knowing who they are. Young people on public transport either pretend to sleep or focus on their video game when someone who needs a seat shows up. Can the CE crosses his heart and say we should all be pleased with the progress?

What scares me more is there are a bunch of youngsters who are the same age as I was when I marched to the race course in Happy Valley. They said the student movement was a riot and the students were armed with weapons and that's the reason of the PLA going to Tian An Men Square to protect the innocent. As I always say, the most powerful "Weapon of Mass Destruction" is people's mind and selective amnesia is spreading like wildfire.

Do I love China? I do because that's where my ancestors are from. Do I care about the Chinese government? Yes! My great grandparents and grandparents sold most of their asset in Hong Kong to help the party to build a new China like lots of other patriotic people back then. It pains me to see if things are not going well. What am I seeing now? Some zealots without a brain is trying to erase part of China's modern history. I am rereading "The Book of Laughter and Forgetting" and I get cold sweat when I think of some news articles and speeches given by those important elites of Hong Kong about June 1989.

I don't think it is possible for anyone to always make the right decision. History is a subject for us to learn from the past and reflect on the present. It is wrong to deny the history and it is "wronger" to teach fabricated history to the next generation. I am just an average mum but I am not going to allow my children to be brainwashed into a brain dead.